thoughts in color

I have a new obsession.  Art journaling!  I have always kept a regular journal (and still have one of course) but I haven’t owned any art supplies since I was a kid.  I started seeing stuff on Pinterest about art journaling, and I got inspired.  I used to make art just for fun all the time, and it had been so long!  Suddenly I found myself craving that satisfaction of putting color onto a blank surface.  So, I went to an art store and got some basic supplies!

I am having so much fun with this.  It doesn’t really matter to me if what I create is any good, but it just feels sooo good to express myself in this way.  It’s extremely cathartic.  There are no rules, just whatever I am inspired to put on the page.  Oil pastels, water colors, colored pencils, stamps, magazine cut outs…anything goes!  Thoughts, dreams, silly ideas…whatever.  This is my place to get messy, to experiment, to color outside the lines.  It’s the most wonderful outlet for me.  I feel like a kid again!  It’s an emotional release for me as well a chance to create.  I never know what’s going to come out and it’s exciting to watch as what’s in my mind begins to express itself on the page.

Anyway, I just had to share!

my life, right now

So many things are going on in my head and so much is happening in my life that I am not even sure what to write about!  I want to write to make sense of it all, to express what I am thinking and feeling and experiencing at this point in my life.  I am at a point of convergence—a point in my life in which all roads are and have been leading up to now—and there is so much happening in this little heart of mine that I feel like I will just burst open if I don’t get some of it sorted out on paper.

But anyway.  Since I’m not sure where to start, I will start with the biggie: Yoga teacher training starts tomorrow!  I am excited, happy, nervous, and soooooo ready.  I want to dive deeper, go further, learn learn learn, and just really immerse myself in this incredible practice.  The practice of yoga has enriched my life in more ways than I can count.  I am excited to be able to give back after having been given so much.  Every day I feel so grateful to all of the amazing people who have been my teachers, who have given freely & lovingly of themselves, who have given adjustments even when I’m so gross & sweaty, who have said exactly the right words I needed to hear at that moment, who have reminded me to always love & respect myself exactly where I’m at.  Now I want to give back.  I can’t say exactly where this journey will take me, but I do know that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be.  I do know that I’m ready!

There are other big things happening, like nearing the completion of my BA, after all this time!  I am so excited about that too.  I don’t care so much about the title or the notion of having “a degree” but really, I am just so grateful for the experience.  College has really been so influential in my life, in opening up my mind to new ideas and infinite possibilities.  In every class,  even my least favorite ones, I’ve at least been grateful just for the knowledge, for the chance to think and grow in new ways.  And as I’m nearing the completion of my Bachelor’s, I’ve got new possibilities opening up.  I’m not finished learning (I don’t think I ever will be!) and I still feel that there is more for me to explore academically.  I’ve got a couple options for graduate school (and one especially that I am leaning towards and most excited about) but I’ll write more on that later.  It just feels really good to be where I am right now and taking one day at a time.

With so much going on, I feel like I’ve hardly had the time to stop and notice that we are in a new year already!  Much less already in the second month.  How is this possible?  I didn’t really make any resolutions this year, but lately I have been thinking about how I spend my time and what I can do to make my moments count.  My number one goal is to really just get the most of right now.  Everything after that will just fall into place.

Here’s to new beginnings!